we do things not by believing in what people say, but believing in what we see. somehow we are always led by what comments people have to say, and everytime we may be just tt little affected by what negativity they say, leading us to behave in certain ways that we think probably deemed to be safer or correct. its ok for others to give comments. its ok to hear what opinions and gossips people have to say. but in the end, its what you see that determines yourself and those surrounding you. dont be intimidated and live inside your enclosed box. see the full picture yourself.

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"if u want to achieve extraordinary results,

u have to put in extraordinary effort."

alamak!! yue kai has lots of essays to rush this week!!! :3

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hmm..i had one of my presentation ysd in my tut class. i was the last presenter out of the 5..and the schedule was quite rushed when it got to the back..so when it as my turn, i was practically rushing through. lol but it was quite a good relief when you look up and found everyone looking and listening to you throughout, when u would expect them to shift their gaze as an indicator of boredom. n i managed to make the class laugh at the end of the whole presenations!! its quite a good feeling to see them laugh, when u could break the whole tense atmosphere hahhaa~~:P

Aja aja!!

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anyway, there is a realli a birthday boom within this period..happy birthdae to yinghui mei on the 26th, xin fei on the 27th and yin yin on the 28th!!! u all create a hole in my pocket @_@ hahaa

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-"self discipline is when your conscience tells you to do something and you dun talk back."

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when expectations either gets here, there, or neither way,

its probably best, not to put oneself too much in.

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isnt it always the same?

i guessed, i've think too much, everytime.

rather than playing guessing games, i guess its better to protect oneself from it all again.

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essays, essays, and more essays!!

STOP IT!!!

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大学生活真是独来独往...

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uni life is getting more mundane as the days pass by. somehow i dun find much attachment with the groups of uni friends as compared to the friends i made in the past. probably cos of the structure and the time frame of the classes, we oni get to mix around and have discussions with the tutorial mates, and oni for that short period of time. but other than that the few hours of interaction, the people in class changes with different modules, all the more its difficult to form such strong friendships. other than that, its getting more like a routine--queuing and packing yourself inside mrt and shuttle buses, rushing to classes, printing notes every now and then, listening to quite boring lectures...sometimes, i wonder if its reali worth all the effort and time to take on university life. but i would stash this thought away whenever i think of how essential it is for a uni qualification now. somehow, it has become a chore to study. to this, i reali feel that the education system has eroded itself; in a sense where education deprives the fun and purpose in studying. rather, they tend to infuse a necessity for us to do so. yet, one thing i like about the life in uni is that uni realli makes one independent. i like the fact that im able to go around uni by myself; asking for assistance, presenting projects, rushing work on time, making decisions by myself, etc. as much as it being a chore, university, in a sense, is training us up, for us to be independent.

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ajabalapapipu!

i can feel it. but in a way where im happy, yet oso scared. please dun let me leave at a point where its starting to get all too familiar, where im starting to get close and used to.

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follow your heart.

sometimes, when u are busy, u just have to find a way to compress everything together. sometimes, im afraid i may neglect certain things altogether. yet sometimes, when u are busy, all the more u allocate time more efficiently. probably the urgency and the tight schedule is there. rather than spending those time idling and procrastinating till i find nothing much is done, i found the urgency forces me to complete tasks much faster. im proud of this little achievement in a way. hees~ there are 24 hours in a day...

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do the things that you are afraid of.

do the things that you do not like to do."

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allow yourself to adapt and learn.

allow yourself to change, for the better.

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lead.

have u often felt this tight and restricted feeling of being tied down to sth which u haven completed and it kept nagging u at the back of your mind, that u somehow had to accomplish it no matter what? if oni the pile of work could be a pile of rubbish..i dun mind at all right now. hahaa yep, its a relief too, that i finish my all tuition assignments for this year. i reali hope my students did well for their end of year exams and show me that they too, are able to produce good grades if they have the determination and diligence:)

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ima gonna find a way somehow.

aja aja aja!!:D

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look far.

everyone has their weakness.

so what if u are slower?

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do not compare yourself with others.

compare with yourself.

gave my speech in front of many ppl ysd..lol hmm..its quite an experience cos i've nvr really tried going up and giving a speech with so many eyes staring at me before. its kind of weird, that i felt a sort of calmity when i stood dere listening to other speakers..my mind was totally blank...i could only felt my heart thumping hard...glancing around..the other speakers gave me the smile and nod of the head for the sign of confidence. i could only give back a weak smile and tried to hold my composure. man..its finally my turn!! this is it man...i told myself as i held on to the mic, and i started talking. n the audi was totally silent...kind os scary cos everyone was waiting for u to say something...n im glad that this time round..i could have eye contact with the audience which i could not in OP. probably, i had to find my team faces for their reassurance, afterall, they are the ones who have been with me all these while and they kind of gave me the courage to talk. and yep, i managed to finish my speech!! haha~yes, rewarding is the word:) aja!!

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I'M GOING TBC THIS TIME ROUND!!:)

PIT AR!!~

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she waited for 47 years to find a platform...

wad abt you?

its been tough. but the encouragement and help they gave really touched me. i will continue to push forward, with them.

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"我会用饼干盖你。"
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佛心, 磨力。

TA-DA!! this is the drawing created and compiled by valarie, siting n me during craft of writing lecture some days back...i came up with this idea of drawing...each of us to draw one component den pass down to the next to continue draw...it started with a plain innocent looking circle..transformed into a flying pig!! ahaha of obviously we were slacking at the back row of the lect hall, helping ourselves with siting's peanuts n chatting...hmm abit gt the cinema feel~ tts y i love craft of writing:D

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after such a long time of not visiting the library...now i have to start gg there frequently to start my research le *faints* abit lost duno where to start from haha...oso i have to print lots n lots of notes yet again!!:/ aja n aja n aja!!!!!!:O

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Faith becomes Belief, Belief becomes Determination, Determination becomes Plan, Plan becomes Action, Action becomes Result....

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Results enhances Faith:D

"we dont plan to fail, but we failed to plan."

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isnt this contemporary of our society nowadays? we keep procrastinating and hesitating in our own comfort zones until the day we realised we have come to a dead end; we lose track of our footing, lost and uncertain in our lives. the rule is to plan early, and plan ahead. to fall as much as possible and learn from our mistakes early, rather than when we get older and get a much harder blow. to live life as full as possible when we still live on. to treat life as an experiencing and enjoyable adventure, with no regrets.

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life's full of ups and downs.

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when u fall, get up,

and continue walking.

Super B lesson was fun ysd!! steve just had his way to make all of us laugh ever so heartedly even in the middle of the night. hes reali SUPER!! haha

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its the start of the reccess week! its definitely gonna be a challenging yet dreadful yet fun period...so AJA BA!!:D

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"I may not be there yet, but I'm closer than I was yesterday."

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when everyone doesnt seem to see it, while you do, you are already one step ahead of everyone else. at least, few years down the road when one looks back, one can still gladly say,

"i've experienced, and i've learned."

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相信自己, 就是本身命运的主宰

went to cycle todae!:)

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A HAPPY BIRTHDAE TO BRO!

their birthdays fall one week after the next..so yea~ last week was bro's birthdae:)

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种种怀念，值了。

何维健 - 我的连续剧

今天之后的我 想要往哪里去
未来字典写什么 我很好奇
我在人海之中穿梭 也想要自己的剧情
我要一片蓝色天空 加上一点点爱情
礼拜三 又下起雨 老是这种天气
孤单单 往前走 这是我的风景
爱在大雨之中 藏在哪里 路标没说明
我找不到 那一颗真心

我的连续剧 爱的连续剧
世界的喜怒哀乐停也不停
爱是种美丽 或者是幻影
未来是不是一个问题
我的连续剧 她的连续剧
我们要多少年后才肯相遇
我有些灰心 也还要努力
看看爱情 它会在哪里

但是我 也绝不会忘了自己当时勇敢的心
要在酸甜苦辣的世界飞 今天开始飞

我的连续剧 爱的连续剧
世界的喜怒哀乐停也不停
爱是种美丽 或者是幻影
未来是不是一个问题
我的连续剧 她的连续剧
我们要多少年后才肯相遇
我有些灰心 也还要努力
看看爱情 它会在哪里
看看爱情 它会在哪里

went to comex with kr today...initially i oni wanted to buy earphones cos it spoilt at the right time when comex comes...but in the end i ended up buying a mp3 and an armband:/ nvm..as long as i find it worthwhile, i dun mind!:D

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"what u put in your mouth is more than what comes out from your back." XD

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learn, as you progress.

blogger cant post pics again:/ roar!!~

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ok...BLOGGER CAN FINALLI UPLOAD PICS LE LA! t2bf mr blogger:/ for the benefit for yinyin who dun conform to social norms...this is it! lol *_* friday the four of us decided to wear this freak design T shirts tt we bought at the school's fair...so theres 4 freakos at ntu compound last fri..haha:)

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these are my lectures buddies haha..ok..freak xinfei has gotten her driving license @_@

sat went to ten mile junction to get my pop voucher...n i brought my small sis to take the LRT there...tts her first time taking the LRT so she was abit hesitant when i pulled her to sit at the front mirror platform there..lol nice~~ but the excitement was shortlived...cos we got off the train after 1 station..lol

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waisin has gone abroad for his studies...initially i thought i could still make a last min send off for him..but i mistook the time...i tot its 6pm and i checked my sms to realise its 6am in the morn today..no wonder my sms didnt gt through to him:( in any way, i hope he would be doing fine dere. will really miss this good harmockee who always never fail to joke and being high tgt with me. probably its a good thing too, tt i didnt get to send him off. cos i knew i would get all teary and emotional; i cant bear seperations. i guess, rather than feeling sad that hes not with us here, i should congrat him for pursuing his aim of study. so, waisin, aja ar!!:) do me proud too!!

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we will be entrusted to make our own decisions at different points of our lives. and these, are checkpoints of our lives to determine where we are going to head to.

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make your own decision.

determine yourself.

the english is too bombastic...totally not like wad they said in craft of writing...wad is that ma! zzz plus the huge chunks of small words can just make mi sleepy. @_@

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there will be pearls in oysters.

ysd is my last day teaching my pri 3 student, jia en, as i decided to stop teaching her due to my uni schedules. n everytime when i have thought i have strongly made the decision to dop them, i will feel a tinge of sadness that that is the last time im teaching them after the months spent with them. n ysd is yet another one of this feelings. i guess, its always like this, isnt it?

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jia en, aja as u promised oo!:)

friends walk you to the forest opening,

besties walk you through the forest with them.

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pushing apart all the wallowing and tears, im glad and blessed in a way, that whatever comes, i still have them to hold me up. its difficult for me as im a person who dun tend to share my emotions; i'll rather keep them to myself, or pen them down somewhere. so sometimes, its all bottled within me. its good in a sense, cos i knoe by then, they would all subside by themselves, and i would be feeling alright again, without any troubles inflicted upon others. maybe i dun trust easily, or i guessed i would seem ridiculous when i share, so i keepmy emotions. yet thinking it to be so, sometimes theres this inevitable feeling that im alone, and all the more miserable i would feel, yet its still bottled up and unwillingly to share in its defense. its like a tightly capped bottle, when u hope it could loosen to make yourself feel better, yet u cant seem to turn and open the cap. so times when i receive their calls or received concern from them, it seems as they have loosen the cap for me. be it words of concern, advice, jokes to make me feel better, i feel their warmth at tt instance. and theres this suden rush of realisation, that actualli, im not alone. tears discharge and everything weak as it seems, their concern always make me feel better. and yes, everything subsides by then. in a sense, im glad and blessed. really.

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there are too mani times when disappointment sets in when expectations dont come the way you anticipate. so, we should learn, not to expect too much, rather, to appreciate.

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"hold your head high."

when u found your drive, it all works, by itself.

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learned quite alot over the past few weeks. though its sometimes mentally challenging and straining, its worth the effort. for myself, and for others around me. its too early to say now, but its definitely a learning experience, in which i will learn, as i move on.

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人生那么短暂,

为何不让自己有个轰轰烈烈的人生?

"in uni...its good to knoe more ppl." indeed, the friends are alot of help n guidance to me in sch:) n its reassuring to see familiar faces here and there ard the school compound, esp when u are lost n late for lect or tut. n just when i tot my navigating skills is not bad...ntu proved mi wrong:/ AND THERES A WHOLE LOT OF READINGS TO DO!! gosh!~

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yep, i managed to swop my course day! woohoo!!~ now im free on wed:D *grins*

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n i juz realised i won a colouring contest!! HAHA! xD

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BE YOUR OWN BOSS.

"when a door closes up on you, another opens."

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how many a times do we sulk over closed doors, do we miss out the opened ones?

school for these 2 days have been kind of relaxing, cos theres oni lect to attend for this week. made a few soci friends too!:) but sadly, none of them are in the same tut grps as mi:( and man...its hard navigating ard in ntu!! argh!~ just todae the few of us met up at a diff place for lect and had to find our way to the specific venue..n den we tried walking ard...to an ulu place to walking through another building out to the canteen, which kind of brought us back to the same place=.= so i bet everytime before lect is an exercise..zzz shall try to explore the sch sometime~~hmm n its kind of sian..cos i went to edventure..n theres alot of readings to do!! *faints* tutorials shall start next week..but i kind of dread it..cos theres already instructions tt tutorials shall be grp work n presentations once it starts! *faints again* n my timetable for this sem is terrible..i can oni try to levitate the 'badness' of it by trying to fit my elective in...hates the feeling of going to sch studying only in the afternoon...the only comforting point is tt the mrt is more empty...but it shall be packed when i gt home..urgh~ o ya..tolking abt transport...i always have to run for bus 179...zzz n i dun need to kip a lookout for the bus...the moment when u see ppl run, u just follow them run haha..hmm~ all these...definitely needs time to adapt!:O

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till den!~:)

alamak!! tmr is school le!!>.<

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my com is lagging so i cant post pics of ysd...had a family gathering for national day ysd cos we went to my aunt's hse for my small cousin reuven's one yr old birthdae celebration...so i shall post them some other days:)

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tmr shall be "first come first serve" day...shall brace myself for all the butterflies n stress ba! @_@ zzzzzzzzzz bring map tmr!

recently read a blogpost about life, reality, friends, etc and chanced upon this paragraph which i found it somehow relating.

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"Many fear that they may not be able to make MORE friends, and NEW friends. My fear is where will the REAL friends be, what will happen in the near future. I am afraid that I can’t differentiate them apart from the superficial ones."

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isnt tt the case? for once, we thought the closeness of a relationship, regardless of wad relations they may be, as long as its strong, it lasts. but as time passed, u soon discover, its not this way. we may be still friends, but friends whom are not close as before, friends who will tend to drift apart...n soon, the feelings fade; u can feel it. all relationships start with fate, this chance for 2 ppl to meet, but further than tt, it needs understanding, requires the compromising, needs time n effort for it to grow n mature. but sometimes, expectations fail and disappointment sets in, and u kind of lose the faith in it altogether. wad lasts? sometimes, i feel like im a semi-partially locked door, willing to be open and accepting, yet apprehensive and careful through it all.

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one may have alot of friends, but who are the ones that understands u?

i just hope my closes', lasts.

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storyline: "im crazy, but not stupid!"

i miss my hair!:(

grow hair grow!

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sometimes, by trying to find our own identities, we try to behave n act in a way to suit and blend into the environment. its an assurance of a place and identity, an assurance that u are somehow "accepted", cos u behave the same, u talk the same, u act the same. but sometimes, by trying to find that "identity", we lose our own identity. this may be of a good thing if one adapts well. but one will not feel free if he is constantly being reined to upkeep that identity which he finds it so hard to uphold. hes restricted and unhappy; cos hes not the way hes supposed to be. so what will the new culture be like? what changes will there be? what identity lies behind? there are too many doubts, too many uncertainties to contemplate now, but which i would discover in a few days' time. its a cycle, again and again.

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its better, to hold onto our guards.

thanks cousin yu jie for teaching me how to "use" blogger!! ahha:)

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ok...heres for some happenings this week...my sis made a mask for her art lesson..n she showed it to me..but i found it not exaggerated enough...so i helped out abit..applied "blush" and thicker "lipstick" for it...n asked my sis to cut out a bigger mouth..n the outcome is much more hilarious ahaa!!

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my sis is quite proud of the ribbons on the hair LOL



cooked my speciality dish--fried rice...some days back...i always zham ingredients when cooking fried rice..n i tried putting celery this time round! not bad~~ aha!!






saturday we had a celebration for my grandma at my second aunt's house. grandma has lost count of her age..so mi n my sis helped her count by her zodiac years..n found out shes 73 le! aja wa ma and be strong n healthy!!:) o ya...ysd is another gathering filled with much small cousins n nephews' tottering n crying n playing about..there is definitely a baby boom ard haha~ but i like! babies are omg-ly cute~~:D
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ahaha!! my small cousin tt i was carrying kept fidgeting n kicking poor nephew jia an!:P

my nephew is chao big n chubby!! cute!:)

ah mei yi n yong jie:)

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went cycling todae...n when my parents heard ima cycle all the way to bishan todae, they made me wear a cap out=.= i have never worn a cap before man...ahha so its kind of weird n funny at first...but luckily i wore it out todae...the sun is so scorching! x_x hmm~so i have decided to wear a cap when out cycling the next time...tt is, when i have brought my own cap lol the return route from bishan is indeed shagged...and thirsty! the first thingy tt i returned back home was to go to the kitchen n gulp 2 cups of water at one go @_@ haha

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my sore throat returns again = the comeback of ah du T.T