i used to be optimistic..i always believe the saying tt when theres a will, theres a way....tt everything will be alright when u've put in ur best. yet the prelims have shown tt probably im just wrong. i wouldnt sae tt i've put in totally 100% of my effort, but i did work. i did try. yet looking at the results...its just depressing...n i duno wads wrong. n all these is making mi scared...i duno wad should i do now..with my morale dropping n the lack of confidence of myself, esp at such a time when its the most crucial. i know theres the sense of urgency...that yr grades are deproving when u oni gt these few days left to As...its like theres nothing u can do except to cont studying. yet does all tt studying realli help? does studying till late n getting tired frm all these show in the results? no, they dont. if not, den wad? its realli making mi scared..im scared abt As...my surroundings, n my future..the feeling of bracing everything alone has nvr been so strong. n everything's giving mi giddy spells every now and then. probably..i have lost the courage n the faith. the end of the road just seemed...so bleak.

im tired.

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stopid As.

domyouji

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mom's birthdae:)

13 more days.

HAPPY BIRTHDAE
JIE YING!!
(grow fatter BUT...dun sore throat ar~~!!:P haha)

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n HAPPY BIRTHDAE
SHIFU!!

(1 day earlier, cos i bet u in army cant see..lol no psp, but i can handcuff u!! let it bring laughter for u ba~~)

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maybi..hes right:)

show yourself.

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yue kai...

"FIGHTO-O!!"

its that day...once again.

the day tt once left mi too speechless,

too mixed...to speak for words.

that moment...

tt suddenly made everything

seemed insignificant.

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"2 min, or 2 hr?"

i guess...

those are wad will always remain.

its been some time.

yet the thoughts are still etched.

the facts of it all...tt comes too late.

the fact tt hurts...ever so badly.

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so pardon mi.

ahh~i just woke up n brushed my teeth, ate my breakfast n managed to pull my bro n sis out of bed...totally ready for sch when i realised tt i woke up an hr earlier=.= to imagine tt i totally nvr realised the correct time since i woke up...i bet my alarm clock is spoiled...cos ysd it nvr rang..zzz the scene was real embarrassing when my pa awoke n told mi tt...i can oni gave them a sheepish laugh=.= hai hao earli in the morn not much energy...cos all 3 of them zzz mi abit den jiu went bak to sleep...tt's y im here now. the weird thingy is im not sleepy though i oni gt abt 4 hrs of slp...i bet it will come in the afternoon. o well...nvm, cos after todae...prelims jiu officially OVER le. time realli flies when u're busi ba...

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todae is oso mama de birthdae...so..

HAPPY BIRTHDAE MA!

after a longgg rest, im still tired. hiaz weird. its the first time i slept till so long, yet still sleepy. yuan ben intended to slp with my mp3 on...but den the wires seemed to tangle ard whenever i turned. n worse, with the dj tolking, the more i cant slp cos i will focus on wad they're tolking abt. hmm..hai hao cos now my coffee is bak in supply.

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badminton

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bro's birthdae

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jun's caterpillar
是怎么了, 我又在梦里看见了你. 梦好甜, 好清澈, 我舍不得醒来.

但也许睡太久, 一切就不切实际了.
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bak to chem ba=l

prelims is over.

well..at least for this week.

yet they're all screwed.

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realli feeling the shagginess frm prelims..this whole week haben realli been too mentally good..havin late nights n feeling drained...yet i still cant gt to slp..having nightmares n kip waking up in the middle of the night made mi all the more tired the next morn...eyes n head feeling heavy all through the week....plus the prelims papers are ming fu qi shi de tough...is even more morale plunging..

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i realised...life is too short n unpredictable..the recent news abt 东方比利's terminal cancer showed juz tt...we all know he lead a healthy lifestyle...n even give health talks...yet life can be juz so cruel..so as to take away a life tt speaks of so much promise. yet maybi it will be till tt instance tt we realised how much we shld treasure everything...tt maybi life is the happiest n most carefree at its purest.

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my eyes are heavy once again...rest ba:/

HAPPY BIRTHDAE BRO:)

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an early greeting for him before his birthdae tmr..cos its the start of prelims..zzz the tot of it makes mi queasy all week....

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aja bae yue kai~

btw, arigatok to hong kai n teo for the semi thingy:)

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im still....mixed.

hiazzz~~its been raining non-stop these few days=.=

我承认 …

我有多么的舍不得, 多么的不甘心。
haben been exercising for quite some time. so its not hard to imagine 2 continual days of badminton have left mi wif sourness all over. my legs, my shoulders, and my butt...n they're all on the right sideT.T

但是, 当初做了决定, 我也没有权力计较了, 不是吗?

那么做, 不就是自私吗?

worse, my backache problem have resurfaced yet again.

仿佛一切变得好快好快….

arrgghh~~i feel like an old woman.

好想问…总前的你, 过得开心吗?
你这么快就忘了一切吗?

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im scared. of prelims.