we always think the grass looks better at the other side. be it the person itself, their character, their family background, their life, we always like to make a comparison and end up feeling all the worse off ourselves. the inferiority, the lack of life and purpose, the mundane life we live through--just seems so dull and unpurposeful. but i guess all these are human nature. cos people are greedy by nature, and of cos, being greedy means not contended with wad we have. n by making comparison with others, of cos theres the empty and soury uneaseness we will feel, the aftertaste of a bad realisation. but y not lead a way tt you want, one tt suits yourself and not be led by wad others think? isint tt way preserving the originality and meaning of your life too? yet we always succumb to "the greener patch of grass at tt XX place." and i dun deny it can get tempting to fall into tt catergory sometimes. bits and pieces, they all fall back into the same place. haha:/

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now tt i've work, i realised its tiring and mundane a chore sometimes. n to think tt i dread gg to school in the past, it just seemed so stopid as compared to now. of cos, theres the escape of homework and exams stress. but yet, working still means theres still work stress, the lack of freedom, work politics, tt make it all seem dreadful. i have to sae, im quite naive. of cos, i've heard abt business politics. but yet again, i know nth of it. but i've heard earfuls of them, n i dread it happening. maybe theres nth now, but in the near future, who knows exactly wad may exist in this business world? we're living in a dog-eat-dog world tt yearns for competition and privilegde, so how can u actaulli escape from life realities sometimes? life is hard, yet ppl still move on. adults sticking on to their jobs cos its a responsibilty. the disabled still have to live life as normal ppl to carve a living. in the end, when ppl come to realise the more unfortunate out there, will they see the better side of things and realise, wad they are doing is actualli so gullible?

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duno y im writing all these. prob its the stressed-out symptoms for this coming friday. how i wished i could run away from it forever, im scared to accept the fact of something tt looms ever so near. but den again, sometimes escapism yields nothing. it oni reflects the weak side of humanity. so y not tackle it at one shot? tts the way i chose to pull out my teeth since young. to heave a big sigh and give it an extremely huge twist. n ta-da, the turmoil is done is seconds. sometimes, life is just this way. to give it a huge boost and brave yourself for wad may happen. the informal term, "heck and go". of cos, theres the hesitation and dilemma, but things nvr seemed so easy if u ever brave yourself, even if its preparing for the worst. n wad lies after it, who knows?