13 july

i know ive blogged just ysd, but im here blogging again cos i wanted to blog abt sth that has been boggling my mind since ysd. 

my mom gt a bad bout of food poisoning ysd and she scared the hell out of me when i saw her ever so weak and pale. it did not help that she slipped and fell and vomited all over the floor thereafter. as i held her arms and patted her back while she vomited, it pained me so much to see her suffer like that. it was then that i realized just how vulnerable and weak humans can be, having succumbed to viruses and bacteria that made u all sickly and fragile. and looking at my mom like that, it not only pained me, it also scared me off. i have always been afraid of diseases, death and anything that is related, in fact, that has gt to be my greatest fear. and looking at the situation ysd, i have to admit, i was very worried for my mom. not only for the fact that the food poisoning is making her sick at that point of time, but more of the fact that my mom is no longer in the pink of health; she falls sick easily. coupled with the fact that both my parents are getting older, im worried for both of their health and their well-being. suddenly, the fear that has been stashed at the back of my mind crept in again. i kept thinking to myself, what if sth bad is going to happen? what are we supposed to do? the image of my mom so sick ysd kept flashing across my mind, even till now, and it does not help to ease the situation too.

i realized, i cannot live without them, not only my parents, but also my siblings. in fact, all those dear to me. i just cant bear to see them suffer the pain and agony and see them wilt with age or disease. 

and so, everyone, pls take good care of yourself and take responsibility for yr own health. remind yr loved ones to take care of theirs too. and not forgetting, to love your loved ones while u still can.