have been feeling kind of stressed up recently. i know i sound stupid, like how can i be stressd up when school was just opened for like, 2 weeks? but i know im a person who gets stressed up easily, and i can feel it now. whenever im feeling stressed or down, i would channel all my energy to working out. and it was when i was running today, did this question popped up: why isit that i can have the self determination to work out everytime, and not for my studies? it was then did i realised, its cos i lack the drive. i dont find my drive from studying. my only aim is to get my cert out from uni and get it over and done with. but i guess i have been living in my own bubble. my own assurance that im still in year 1, where i can be carefree in my studies, and still have good results miraculously. i realised, i have been trying to push my worries and dreadful feelings more and more to the back, not wanting to face them. but now, im faced with so many eloquent and capable students this semester. im being reminded of being in jc again, where i feel im not capable of any subjects. once again, i have been trying to push back the reality, and live in my own world of self-contentment and reassurance. or even, by telling the people around me how bad my situation was, all the while expecting them to provide me with the reassurance or support that i cant find. but all these shall stop. others can help by saying things to probably make u feel better, but at the end of the day, its you who determine what u want to achieve. i know my own capabilities. i know im slower than most people. its all the more i have to put in double or even, triple the effort that others take. its time to buck up, yue kai.
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anyways, i found a song which i particularly like the first time i heard it. its JLS's 'love you more'. i cant explain why, but it just lead me to reflect and give me the strength. the power of songs is indeed powerful yea??--
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valentine's day is not important...
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...cos as long as you're with the one you love,
"everyday is a Valentine's day."--
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