im tired. from the lack of sleep im depriving myself everyday. i wan to sleep, my body's telling me tt...but i dun wan to sleep:/ blame it all on myself, cos now..there's the aftereffects. n my lower back ache starts to act up again. if its not kidney, then wad isit..im seriously worried. but a full body checkup is abit redundant at this age i supposed? if tts the case, den wads the appropiate time for one? and if its not perturbing enough, its looming nearer, and i've started to get the jitters every once in a moment. all these jumbled with the repeated callings, the sedentary lifestyle, his attitude and the frenzyness of everyday business world, its all too frustrating. but on the other side of things, its gonna be payday. and wads more satisfying to know tt she has improved? im happy, but theres still the uncertainty. the stress. the worry, which are seemingly more significant, which i cant brush away. i hate to tell myself to be brave repeatedly. yet, i guess its all a neccessity.

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is there anithing tt lasts...forever?