have not been feeling tt well the past few days. being moody, stressed, fan, emotional, n everything negative. juz like a roller coaster ride. so pardon mi.

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have managed to gt 2 tuition assignments...n i promised to do my veri best to help the kids to improve. heard from experienced frens tt u somehow gt to be more fierce, in order to let them listen to u. but den again, i know kids dun like stern tutors. im once a kid myself, can? haha n i alreadi joked n chatted with them like no other, so ooops, i wanna change n become stern all of a sudden, its prob a feat:S n i most prob will end up making a fool out of myself for being stern. so, just being myself is prob the best:)

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i would like to gt more tuition assignments n work at the same time. to earn more money n contribute some bak to my family n my 2 ah mas. yes, i've already planned tt quite some time ago even before the As. just let mi find a good full time job to fulfill my simple wish. haha:) n maybi, burying yourself in work is the best way not to ponder abt things. so again, i would like to gt more students...its oso another alternative income once i gt enter uni 8 mths ltr. but den again, im trying to decipher how ima manage my time with uni, with tuition and CCA (i decided to take on one). so yea..hmm *still thinking~*

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january is oso the time when some of my frens and cousin are oso gg to enlist in army soon. one by one, they are going in, and in for 2 whole years. its gonna be harder to meet out n see each other, unlike those times in school, when in the past, seeing them is like a normal phenomenon tt u nvr reali considered much. n as for us gals, yes, its work. i guess, 18 is reali the time when we all have our respective paths and the time to be independent for ourselves. im scared abt the future, n sometimes, i reali dreaded to grow up, to tackle all these alone. i hated the feeling of being left alone to survive, to wander. i admit, im scared. its a huge difference when in the past, i reali hope to grow up fast, n earn huge bucks, be free from homework stress. but den, as u grow older, reality strikes. as i compared the past n now, i know, life isnt gg to be as easy as u think it all is. n now tt school's over, im feeling all the more empty.

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if only theres a robot.

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再坚固的外壳, 也有他脆弱的一面。