i used to be optimistic..i always believe the saying tt when theres a will, theres a way....tt everything will be alright when u've put in ur best. yet the prelims have shown tt probably im just wrong. i wouldnt sae tt i've put in totally 100% of my effort, but i did work. i did try. yet looking at the results...its just depressing...n i duno wads wrong. n all these is making mi scared...i duno wad should i do now..with my morale dropping n the lack of confidence of myself, esp at such a time when its the most crucial. i know theres the sense of urgency...that yr grades are deproving when u oni gt these few days left to As...its like theres nothing u can do except to cont studying. yet does all tt studying realli help? does studying till late n getting tired frm all these show in the results? no, they dont. if not, den wad? its realli making mi scared..im scared abt As...my surroundings, n my future..the feeling of bracing everything alone has nvr been so strong. n everything's giving mi giddy spells every now and then. probably..i have lost the courage n the faith. the end of the road just seemed...so bleak.

im tired.

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stopid As.